fleshjenn's Blog
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November 2012
17
POSTED ON
11/30/12
bad news and annoying people rain.
a sad 18
POSTED ON
11/29/12
I cant even think right now. my mom just told me that great grams is gonna have to go in a nursing home. the only thing that came to mind is that "she cant die there."
I know she needs the added care, but its just too much to think of. That this is her last stop before the grave.
I know she needs the added care, but its just too much to think of. That this is her last stop before the grave.
19
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11/28/12
wanna play. wanna win the lotto so I never have to work again. :P
20!
POSTED ON
11/27/12
I still cannot get over the fact that I got Lucky Palms for only 858 points yesterday!
Its the only world I didnt currently own. and I absolutely love the cactus that comes in it. I actually have 1 build in my studio that I spent time hunting for desert looking plants for. and 2 more I am getting ready to build. of course now I just need to hope the intended recipients of the homes also have LP. think its time to put my detective hat on and do a little snooping. ;)
21
POSTED ON
11/24/12
Its it normal to consider "The End"?
As I watch my great grams decline I feel...... confused? conceited? I know I shouldnt be thinking of myself at a time like this, but I cant help but wish I go with my mind intact.
I hate myself for thinking it. I know it isnt her choice, but its just awful seeing the way she is, so far from the woman she was. I try and remember the strong independent woman I grew up knowing. the role model I have tried to emulate.
I have worked hard to substain myself and my kids on my own;
I just cant imagine that one day I will be that helpless.
If this Lupus has its way, that future may be nearer than I fear.
As I watch my great grams decline I feel...... confused? conceited? I know I shouldnt be thinking of myself at a time like this, but I cant help but wish I go with my mind intact.
I hate myself for thinking it. I know it isnt her choice, but its just awful seeing the way she is, so far from the woman she was. I try and remember the strong independent woman I grew up knowing. the role model I have tried to emulate.
I have worked hard to substain myself and my kids on my own;
I just cant imagine that one day I will be that helpless.
If this Lupus has its way, that future may be nearer than I fear.
22.. Thanksgiving blahs.
POSTED ON
11/24/12
Worked all day, came home and my mothers annoying family was still here. Couldnt wait for them to go.
23
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11/24/12
forgot to post. that badge will be mine! sooner or later. :P
24
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11/18/12
Dont wanna go to work. Its so boring! maybe I should look into switching to a different position in the store? lol, better drag myself off to get ready.
25
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11/17/12
hey I didnt miss a day, well I did but i didnt, I wonder how that happened?
26 to go.
POSTED ON
11/17/12
Darn it all, I missed a day! thank you crazy duck dynasty dudes! I get so caught up in your weird drama that I forget to come online. : P
27 left
POSTED ON
11/16/12
Ok had myself a good hot shower cry. Sorry for unloading that here. bumping it down and out of sight.
a misty eyed 28 to go
POSTED ON
11/16/12
I am literally sitting here with tears in my eyes. I was browsings someones my page and came across this link:
http://www.butyoudontlooksick.com/articles/written-by-christine/the-spoon-theory/
Finally. Finally, someone understands, finally someone can explain it. I too have Lupus. Its gettting worse. Its one of the reasons I moved back by my parents. I am afraid that in too short of a time, I wont be able to raise my kids alone anymore.
I dont tell anyone, and I am embarrassed just to post here. but I get bald spots and sores on my head all the time. I have never been one to spend hours putting on makeup. but I now have to spend an hour each morning making sure my hair lays just right so no one can see how ugly my head is.
I hate it! I wont stand close to some one taller than me, I wont walk by someone on a ladder, I hate stooping down to stock shelves cause then people will look down at me and what if they see! what will they think. I cant imagine how much of my day I spent worrying if someone will see these ugly eyesores.
I am not a dirty person. I shower everyday, I have tried countless preions, home remedys, and over the counter products. It wont go away.
its disgusting and I just want to be normal.
http://www.butyoudontlooksick.com/articles/written-by-christine/the-spoon-theory/
Finally. Finally, someone understands, finally someone can explain it. I too have Lupus. Its gettting worse. Its one of the reasons I moved back by my parents. I am afraid that in too short of a time, I wont be able to raise my kids alone anymore.
I dont tell anyone, and I am embarrassed just to post here. but I get bald spots and sores on my head all the time. I have never been one to spend hours putting on makeup. but I now have to spend an hour each morning making sure my hair lays just right so no one can see how ugly my head is.
I hate it! I wont stand close to some one taller than me, I wont walk by someone on a ladder, I hate stooping down to stock shelves cause then people will look down at me and what if they see! what will they think. I cant imagine how much of my day I spent worrying if someone will see these ugly eyesores.
I am not a dirty person. I shower everyday, I have tried countless preions, home remedys, and over the counter products. It wont go away.
its disgusting and I just want to be normal.
29 to go
POSTED ON
11/14/12
Seasons Rocks! minus the freezing and crashing. I am having a great time with it. my sim can splash in puddles, and am I the only one collecting wildflowers? I have like 7 of them all over the house now. My sim had to go get an allergy shot at the hospital, cost $200.
30 to go
POSTED ON
11/14/12
By the way... Have you seen my new sim upload? Kitty Burrows is a werewolf. I love how I did her nails! I did alot of detail with her I usually dont do. I think her outerwear outfit and her everyday are my favorite!
31 to go
POSTED ON
11/14/12
I just noticed that their are only two web achievement badges I havent earned, the only about becoming a moderator ( which isnt likely to happen) and the one about blogging 50 times. Now I find that curious cause I thought for sure I completed the blog one way back when we had a treasure hunt thingy. but ooh well. So what I am gonna do since I am about 31 blogs away from the badge is try to blog at least once a day till I get it.
It will be mostly nonsense rambling, Enjoy!
It will be mostly nonsense rambling, Enjoy!
